Amy's so called life

Would you choose differently if you could choose your occupation again? Why? How? Any advice?  I have been thinking allot about having a new occupation (don't get me wrong I love working as a crossing guard) I wish I could take all the experiences that I have had from the time I graduated from high school til now and condense them into Jr. high til about 20ish, I know that would be allot in a "short" life but I feel like I could have the life I have lead but add to it with an education while still young.  Don't get me wrong I don't regret my life at all I have learned allot from lifes lessons, it's not the "typical" Utah life but I would not trade what I have learned for anything. I would love to get an education in the highest degree posible and use it to the best way posible.

So I made a Journal Jar in a Relief Society activity the other night and in that jar is ?'s that you could put into your journal and answer the ? one of them made me want to post in my blog and the question is: What is your favorite painting? The first thing that came to mind was the painting called "Girl with the pearl earring" I don't know why it's my favorite painting it just is.

So I posted that I was having flash backs of dreams and then after posting I had even more but this time they were more disturbing even for me as an adult. I talked to my husband about it and we are both convinced that I must have had one heck of a bad past life where I must have done bad things and worshiped the devil and it leaked into my subconscious when I was a small kid into this life. I had dreams about this girl in my neighborhood that had spiders as eyes the body of the spider was where the eye of the girl was suppose to be and the legs of the spider on her face, I had that dream allot. Then I would have another dream where a guy was wearing a hokey mask, plaid shirt, blue jeans and beating me with a metal base ball bat.  These dreams were in the house we lived in before the house  my mom lives in now. When we moved into the house that my mom lives in now I started having dreams about a red eyed goat that was trying to take me back where I needed to finish some things (I