Amy's so called life

so I've been looking over my blogs and boy oh boy I've decided to have a change of attitude especially for the new year, DAM IT ALL THIS IS GOING TO BE ONE HELL OF A YEAR!!!!!

Well I'm officially done with school for a while the only time I'll get a break for the whole year so might as well enjoy it while I can!! So I haven't herd from Matt and I'm not really planing to for the rest of my life. just a little update on that aspect I'm doing my best to keep a positive attitude on relationships and all that "junk" it doesn't help when you see two of your classmates kind of being physically intimate it just makes me want to do allot of things but I keep to myself until I get home then I just break down and ???? with seeing them being close it hurts allot but I know it's not my place to say anything so I don't. Obviously I'm not over the whole thing of having my "boyfriend" leaving and then not really.......well come to think there was a whole lot of other things but in the long run, I've figured He just wasn't that into me, it hurts. Hence that's why I'm just trying to have a better attitude

Well I've got to say that sense Matt has moved I've been the one calling and I got to tell you I'm tired of being the only one calling, so I have told him that we can still be friends but I'm just tired being the only one that puts forth the effort into this friendship, that if wants to talk he can call me any time. personally I don't think he will be calling any time soon. so I think this chapter in my life is closed. Sad to say but it's the truth, all I can do is move on with my life, and hope for the best for him.

well we go from stuffing ourselves at thanksgiving to "hobbling" over rapping paper from wrapping presents, snow & slush, racing to the stores through the snow and slush, most of all fighting for what you want at the store to give to your loved ones even when it means stealing it out of the carts of other people when there backs are turned. How pathetic have we become? oh you can't forget the overcharging and having to worry if you have enough money to pay for next months bills. the joy's of reality!!

Did you hear how some woman wants Santa Clause to stop saying "HOHOHO" because it's offencive? My thought exactly. I have no comment for that lady, I think she gets confused if Santa is calling her or not. (bad joke) she needs to find a day job that requires her to .... so she can quit her "night" job. I haven't herd from Matt yet I've called his phone a couple of times and it goes straight to voicemail, I'm figuring he's either got his phone turned off or the battery is dead. I've e-mailed him also and no response, I'm hoping he's not dead!! Thought I'd let you know if anybody cared.

so I have to say that Matt & I have decided to be friends sence he is in Michigin and I'm here in Utah. it sounds like my life should be a country song all you have to do is put all this junk on my blog together and there you go. the name of the song should be called Michigin instead of Austin (if any of you are country fans you know what I'm talking about) so life goes on and hope things go for the best.

so it's been a week and I've called him practically every day, he's doing good he started his job today, he's so exited because he's been in "limbo" ever since he found an apt. the Suck thing is that he can't move into his apt. till next week from my understanding, but he is able to work. for him he is able to work to keep him busy til he can move into his apt. then when he does move he will be supper busy with trying to get settled in to his apt. I thought I would update everybody on Matt and what is going on with him.

talk about like total gossip like, you know, what I said in the heading FYI Matt made it to Detroit and he's doing good. he's had a couple of leads on apt.'s and he's checking them out to see what's the best one. his stuff comes next week so he can have time to find an apt. proves how dorky my life is, just wanted to let anyone who cares know. at lest I know my life is consistent, going to school full time during the day Mon.-Thurs. and working part time @ XXI.

So I know it's been three days and I know I need to get over this but it's harder than I thought!! It's hard not to go to his office and talk with him during the lunch break, or even during a 10 min. break half way through class. it's hard not to go to his house after work sense he lived not to far from the mall. it's not to hard to think of him when he's practically driving across country by himself and hoping he doesn't fall asleep behind the wheel, get a speeding ticket,or even get into an accident because he was speeding and fell asleep behind the wheel, in the long run I know he's OK. I've been calling him once a day to at least to check to see if he is doing ok and he is making better progress than expected and I'm glad but that dosn't make me stop worring about him getting a ticket, or getting into an accident. (I sound like a Mom) I care about him, because he's the best thing that has ever came my way (besides my family).

so listen to this!! my man is moving out of the state he got a job in Michigan in the Detroit area and leaves tomorrow how sad is that!! he applied for the job before we started dating & he found out that he was starting on the 13 of this month. we have spending allot of time together and I've been helping him pack so he's not so stressed out. the nice thing about spending all this time together is that it has given us a chance to get to know each other better.

I hope you like my pic's it's not much but it's something.

hi, this is new to me so I hope I'm doing this right.