update on the virge of breakdown

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so i read my last blog and i have to say that i work Mon-Fri. not Thurs. i work 5 days a week. but today has been the first day of having the four day weekend and what a day I've had a migraine all day i have to say couldn't time that more perfect to have a migraine on my scheduled day off. i would rather have the day off and have a migraine and suffer at home instead of having 5 people saying my name every 5 sec. wanting to use the bathroom, needing a drink, helping them move from one seat to the next, turning down the radio because of it being turned up to loud every 5-10 min., takeing sacks off of sandwiches for them, opening drinks, pudding, applesause cups, then taking people to the bathroom again for the 10th time during the 2 of the 4 hours that they are there. i love having the day off and only worry about myself!!! that sounds so egocentric but sometime you have to be that way and right now I'm feeling very egocentric.

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