Amy's so called life

So the reason for the title is because I offered to work just for thanksgiving and Christmas day, BIGGEST MISTAKE EVER I have had people calling me NON STOP to work for them for the week of thanksgiving I worked two weeks straight with no brakes then for Christmas same thing. I'm so glad that I'm going to a reunion on Mon. and Tues. Dec. 29 and 30 so I can relax, also I have my original two days off on that same week on Thursday and Fri. I'm going down to St. George for the new year because I can!! I'm putting my phone on silent so nobody calls me to cover there shift. I'm so exited to have all this time off all in one week. the funny thing is that I'll be 6 hr. shy of having my reg. hrs for the week, how I pulled it all off ?I work my butt off. next yr. I'm making sure I'm getting the holidays off!!!! so I can hopefully enjoy the holidays instead of despising them literally. Now you know why I HATE the holidays.

so today I decided to go to Costco and get a membership (I had one a couple of yrs ago but canceled it) while I was there I forgot that you buy things in bulk. So I decided to shop for some food, when I got to the check out stand I was thinking to myself how much it would be, I was way off!!! it was way more expensive than I remember. but the nice thing about this is that I won't have to go shopping for another month for food sense I live by myself. what's really nice I'll only have to grocery shoping 12 times a year!!! instead of every week going to the store for food and eventually have it end up costing the same at the end of the month might as well shop once and your done now that's what I call shoping!!!! while I was there I was able to get other things that I needed which was nice now I don't have to get those items for SEVERAL months yah!!!

so I was at work the other day and I had to take one of the guys to get a pop and he just happened to do something funny so I laughed and told him that he was funny and the response that he had was...."I know I am" then laughs which made me laugh even harder. I wasn't expecting that at all, which in itself was funny. I have many many other stories like this which makes working with the mentally challenged all worth it. I have to say I love working with these people!!

so I was reading my last entry and boy I sound so carnal and ugly. usually if people have grown up in the church they would have the church as there top and only priority in there life and then there is me....... I love food, my bed, sleep and my cats and I only mention the church like once and that's it.

5 things you want to do before you die: 1-finish my education 2- get married 3- have kids 4- watch my kids grow up happy 5- live happily ever after with my hubby 5 things that make you absolutely happy: 1- having a bed to sleep in at night 2- that I have two cats who surprisingly are still here and love me 3- knowing that my house is still standing at the end of the day 4- that my car still runs at the end of the day 5- that I have a brain to think with, a heart that beats every min of every day, the freedom to chose how I feel, and air in my lungs. 5 places you want to visit: 1- Grand Teton National Park in Wyo. (absolutely LOVE that place I could live there!) 2- Chicago 3- the state of Maine 4- New York City where the twin towers fell (as a family we saw them a month before they fell so I would like to go back) 5- the strip at Las Vegas I haven't been there in a long time 5 places you have visited: 1- Fairbanks, AK 2- Beijing, China 3- West Yellowstone National Park 4-...

I know the title is/can be confusing, but I hate being sick because I feel like stinky swamp mud. but at the same time I can get away of being lazy and not do anything. So this is how it all went down. On Tuesday I could just feel it coming like having a gut feeling that something is going to happen and when it did I was right on, yesterday it came like a Tornado! The stinky thing is is that I had school and work. I had to go to school because we were getting ready for a test, and at work we are so understaffed that if I called in somebody would have to cover my shift but would get overtime, I didn't want to do that to anybody because it stinks. Today I have to say that I'm lucky that my teacher is able to work with me and I'm able to take the test at a later time, also that I have the day off because I feel even worse. The nice thing about being sick and the reason why I'm even writing this is because part of being sick is that you can be lazy and get away with i...

so I was at home the other day listening to a conference report (I can't remember who the speaker was, sorry but I know it was a woman) from what I remember she was talking about dating, keeping your standards high, remembering that you a child of God, and respecting your date. but the thing that ran though my head was Jerry Seinfeld. If you have ever seen Seinfeld you know that he is VERY picky when he is dating a girl. he tends to pick out stupid little things that are no big deal. I think he can talk to the other person about compromise because I bet there are things that "bother" them too. I feel like that allot of guys here in Utah are like Jerry. "oh her hair isn't the right color of brown, she laughs to high, she doesn't dress quite the way I like, I don't like the way she eats, she's to wild(out of control)/boring(no personality) for me, she's to fat/skinny for my taste, she's to tall/short, her schedule doesn't co-inside with mi...

som pics from sundance nothing that GREAT I thought it was going to be looking better but thats wat you get, I'm not that bumed out.

these pics are outside my front door I took them befor I got the idea to go up the canyon to take more. but I hope to remember to post them if not be patient and I'll eventually remember. I have to say I LOVE the fall!! for me I always feel hot so the cool air feels good, well also that I love halloween. I think I just love the feel of getting to dress up and have fun parties with family and friends and to pretend to be some"body/thing" else than yourself for one night or several depending if you have more than one party on sevral diffrent nights. the funny thing about the start of the holidays I love halloween, Thanksgiving is good, Christmas is ????, New years, what's that? I haven't had a "normal" new year's in a while well last year was intresting now that I think about it it's pritty funny. I think I even posted it. but it always seems that I have to work that night so I alway end up being by myself. this year I have no Idea what or where...

I'm thinking of dressing like this all year round and joining a monastery, the reasons are all below and as you go down the line of pic's more you will understand. because I'm to WILD AND CRAZY FOR THE STATE OF UTAH!!!!!!! first off look how I do my hair, I'm stuck in the 80's. this is how I dress when I go to school with signs all over I look like a hooker Then for food, I have no will power of knowing when to stop. I can't help but eat myself till I'm the size of Texas and Alaska put together! right when you thought I looked bad for school this is what I look like when I go out on the town! I'm the PIMPS one and only mistress, and this is looking mild to what I look like normally I call this the "Chicago look" I think I look better that Kathryn-zeta-Jones, Queen Latifa, and what's her name in the movie "Chicago" all rolled together in one. you can't forget that I do my own modeling in my own studio. no wonder I have ...

really close up of me so you can get a look at my fake eye lashes (the pic didn't come out as clear as I wanted but I guess it's better than having it really blurry) me trying to be a "BAD FAIRY" (or fairy gone wrong) with a smirk on my face. well that's what you get when you live by yourself and you have to put the camera on something and take a pic of yourself looking......well...... you decide. I like this picture, it's kind of fun, especially that you can see my tattoo. it gives the "fairy gone wrong" more meaning because whenever I think of fairies I think of Tinker Bell and she's good, cute, and has no tattoo's etc. but I think it's funny that I'm sporting the Asian look in the background in all three pic's. you would think I would do something that made it look like I was somewhere scary!!! The reason for me putting pics up a little more than a week before Halloween is because I had the day off, I was board, and I want...

This is called a neti pot it helps with your sinus' it's pretty cool!! specially for allergies to keep your sinus' clean. I got these flowers from my sis-in-law pretty cool huh!!! you can say that I ultimately got these shoes from my dad I have high heels but I didn't have "stilettos" all my other high heels have thick heels not these, hope I don't break an ankle!! top view so you can see the bow. so those are just some things I got for my b-day nothing spectacular which I don't mind. I'm glad for keeping things simple. I would rather keep things simple than having elaborate things for my b-day. when I was younger I wanted to have elaborate party's now that I'm older I would like to just have a fun party with family and close friends, a cake and few simple presents that's it because I would rather be with family and close friends than worldly possessions because if somethin...

So I started this Accounting class two weeks ago and I have to say after two weeks I dislike it very much the first thing is that my teacher is going way to fast and I don't understand him half the time. I would ask him more questions so I could understand better but I have a half hr. lunch break and then I have another class and by the time it's lunch time I'm starving so I eat lunch then it's time for my other class (which I like and have fun in) then after that class I have to go straight to work. how FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!! Talk about frustrating!! I have been frustrated with my job for quite some time I feel like EVERYTHING is dumped on me and I have to live these people's lives for them I have to cook, cut up food for them so they don't choke, clean, shop, do finances, go to the bank, PAPER WORK, help them take a shower, deal with there "snotty attitude", give them there meds, and if they have a headache give them a pain reliever, behaviors that...

So last night I was hanging out with Cindy and her friends. I forgot how much fun it is to be around other girls who have the same standards as me. and how much fun it can be to have good clean fun even if you just sit, talk, and kind of play a game and watch Mr. Bean. You can't go wrong with that!!! Ever scenes I started school I've been around people who have different "standards" and I'm feeling it!! you think that being in Utah everybody would have the same standards but for the past yr. people have been coming out of the wood work like you would not believe. I've meet so many girls who are "single" parents out of wedlock, different religions, don't have religion, and don't believe in religion. Also people who think having a good time is getting drunk and watching your kids/others doing something to entertain you. well also just having others to talk to and not having to listen to there problems and them talking about themselves and bei...

FLOATING EYEBALLS AND SPIDERS TRICK-OR-TREAT AND FLOATING GHOSTS SELA TANS BALES OF HAY AND PUMPKINS WITH FACES MORE GHOSTS, SPIDERS, AND FLOATING EYEBALLS AND YOU CAN'T FORGET THE SCULLS IN THE BUSHES!!!

so I have to give you background so you know where this is. so I have two extra bedrooms and for some reason my cats love being in them so I just keep the doors open because if I shut them they stand by the door and scratch til I open the door so they have full rein on the house and I just happen to be their guest in the house. so this is in one of the bedrooms and I have mini the cat and Minnie mouse, I couldn't help myself but to take a picture. oooohhh ssssoooo cute!!!!

So last night I was hanging out with my Sis. and I missed a call on my home phone. I got a message from the Dr.'s saying that I'm not a diseased freak!!! well not using those words. it's high cholesterol manifesting itself through my liver HOW GREAT IT THAT! Personally I would rather have high cholesterol and get it down by eating better and getting healthy than a disease that can't be treated, or reversed through kemo. And being doomed to die in 6 months or less. I know that there are people that are like that out in the world, I feel bad for them and wish them the best.

So I was looking on the Internet about pumpkins and I saw this and I couldn't resist, I had to put it on my blog. especially when pumkin season is just around the corner.

so I have to say that I normally don't mind going to the Dr.'s but this time is different, talk about scary. they drew some blood a couple of weeks ago & they call me last week and say by the way we saw something suspicious. totally different why I went to the Dr.'s in the first place, that I need to come back in and get more blood work done. the scary thing is hearing something you don't want to hear over the phone and hope that with the more blood work isn't confirmed of what they said it might be. but knowing it could be true because you just have that gut feeling that it could be true. now I just have to wait for that phone call to see what they say (the Dr.'s). just a little update on my so called life.

so I had the day off from work and I bought some hair stuff the other day and I was cerious of what my hair would look like black, I was board (it always seems that I'm board and I do something with my hair) but this is a sad preview of what my hair might look like for halloween. it's part of my costume. plus the color is supose to look "jut black"

so for the past month I have been feeling sick & tired and to tell you the truth I'm sick & tired of it. The reason why is because of allergies and my hormones are seriously out of whack. ever science I turned 30 weird things have been happening to my body and it doesn't help that I'm even more whacked out with allergies. so I finally went to the Dr. to see what's wrong with me and they took some blood, I hope the results aren't to wacky and they can tell me if I'm actually normal instead of all screwed up in every which way possible, they probably will say that I need to be in some kind of lab being tested like a lab rat for every test known to man and lab rat, to see what's wrong with me. can't wait for the dreaded phone call!

I was on the Internet and I saw this picture and I wanted to share, it's of a place in Maine. I have to say the state of Maine fascinates for some reason. it was the same way when I went to Alaska, Jackson whole, Wy, and China. I've been to NYC and that's the furthest north on the East coast that I remember. like I said in my last entry I want to at least go on a cruise of Maine and I've done the homework I just have to save up some money.

To anybody who I didn't offend in my last two entries and still give a crap to what I'm up to, I'm so exited about moving to full time at work. I will be working 6 days a week and I'm hoping to have Friday's off because it will be the only day away from my "clients" and people from school. So I can have just a me day and not worry about anybody else. from my understanding I'll tech. be shy by four hrs but I'll be counted as full time:( OK as you can tell I'm turning into a workaholic I wouldn't mind getting more hrs just so I can keep myself busy but I have school and right now I don't mind school I wish I could go through faster. just so I can work more!!!! because I'm sick of being a lazy bum and mooching off of others for everything. I'm exited that I can actually pay for my own things like wanting to snow board and pay for all the equipment and lessons, a dang nice digital camera or lens for the camera that I already have, h...

THIS IS WHAT I FEEL LIKE ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! school, work, life in general. I get to bed at a decent hr. and get up in time to get ready for school and I have had several people tell me that I get to much sleep. I don't think so I have been going to bed and getting up around the same time for the past yr. to me personally I think it's the new job that I got working with mentally challenged. at my other jobs that I have had I never felt like this. I feel so worn out mentally, physically,emotionally, spiritually. every aspect of my life I feel so drained. I'm thinking of going to the Dr. to see what's up..... or down. I feel tired all the time no matter what time of the day it is I'm tired. by the way No, I don't have mono I haven't shared any drinking glasses, kissed adybody with mono if anybody wanted to know.

So I got the ENSIGN the other day and on the cover is a "single" girl. and on the bottom right hand corner of course the heading is about "singles." so I took it to work today and I read the "cover story" and it was/is EXACTLY HOW I FEEL AS A SINGLE PERSON IN UTAH!!! read the ENSIGN and you'll know what I'm talking about. especially how I've been feeling for the past couple of yrs. and just how frustrating it's been, but a nice reminder that I need to focus on becoming a better individual and working on my strengths/weaknesses a better friend, and not so much "obsessing" on why I haven't gotten married yet.

So for the past year ever sense I started school I have meet so many girls/women that have a boyfriend, married, pregnant, or have kids. The girls/women have been all ages from 15 to 50. I think they are all so lucky because they know what it's like to have a successful relationship with a guy, know what it's like to be pregnant and have kids. for me I've had A relationship but officiously that didn't last long at all. I know that there are men that are weirdo's out there and to be careful of who to trust. but to tell you the truth I'm getting sick of being the only girl that's single and have no prospects in sight. doesn't help that I go to school full time and switching from part time to full time at work. I've had so many people ask so surprisingly "Your not married, no kids, you don't have a boyfriend?" of course I always say no and I always get the same reaction from them. I know I need to wait to "find Mr. Right" b...

Well a couple of Sundays ago I decided not to go to church after work but go up to Sundance and take some pictures, boy was it busy. there were allot of people all over but luckily I was able to get a picture by myself just for the heck of it! well in two weeks my life is going to get even more crazy I've decided to go full time at work so my life WILL consist of only three things work, school, and sleep. (and I wonder why I'm not married yet) talk about not being married! so a co-worker came and worked with me for a couple of hrs and it was the first time that we have worked together and they asked if I was married and I said no, they sounded so surprised that I wasn't yet. for me that was a first that somebody sounded surprised, usually people are like oh.... what's wrong with you. (just by the look on their face I can tell even though they don't say anything) especially sense I'm 30, single, and living in Utah. for me right now I'm not looking because I...

so I sent alot of people an e-mail about this already but if I missed you I'm sorry but I'll tell it again. so I was sitting on my couch being a couch potato and I herd a noise, I thought nothing of it because I thought it was my cats. well 5 min later I hear it again and I saw both my cats and they were sitting there minding there own buisness so I get up and I see a RACOON scratching the glass on my back door and instead of calling the wildlife rescue I call my mom freacking out!! HOLY COW YOU WOULD NOT BELIVE WHAT'S IN MY BACKYARD! all while this is going on I'm taking pictures (hence the picture) and this one is the best one I got well after talking to her I called the wildlife people and they said to just leave it alone and everything will be OK. so then I thought might as well send people some e-mails and write on my blog about it. so there you go.

I know I look weird and I know I go through hair styles like a teenage girl who can't make up her mind, when there is a VERY cute boy who is waiting for her at the front door, and has the biggest crush on and wants to look good. well I just took a picture to say look at my new do I got it chemiclly straightened and yes this is my natural hair color the last time I colored it was when I started school last year. to me my hair looks like it is light brown with a reddish tint. I could be wrong. oh well

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT I GOT MY NAILS DONE!!! well you really can't tell I tried getting a closer pic but it came out blurry. but today is my only day off from work this week so guess what I did? I got done with school around two P.M. then I filled my portable pool up with water and thank goodness I live by myself but to bad I don't have a husband, because I had my own girl moment of tanning, soaking in the pool, listening to Josh Groban, ate Chinese takeout and to top it off ice cream, and of course I got my nails done. but with the ring I bought it at walmart like two years ago so nothing big but I thought it would be funny to wear it and take a pic of my nails and the ring. (my precious) but I have to admit I'm thinking of looking up on the Internet to see if any chick flicks are playing if not I'll stay home and watch one of my own. talk about being a total girl!!! with having no real full day to myself I have to take the later part of thurs. and the morning of Fri. to...

So tonight I took an extra shift for a guy at work and it was with an apt. with two guys whom I have meet and have gotten to know briefly so they wouldn't be confused of why I was there tonight. so the guy that does the overnight shift comes into the apt. and called somebody and after the call he starts yelling at me saying that I wasn't doing my job and I thought what the heck are you talking about and I asked what he meant and he said that I/we (because there was somebody with me for a couple of hrs.) didn't go out and get some nasal spray that a client needed that he hasn't had for a week and two days now, that he's suppose to have when he takes his eight o'clock med. well I knew that this client had eight o'clock med but I didn't know that he was suppose to have the nasal spray. I noticed the empty box on the counter but I didn't know what it was for and I'm not the regular staff so I left it alone and I did everything that I was told to do...

Talk about drama, the past month allot of "drama" has happened and if your in my immediate family you know what I'm talking about. But for me the saga continues but with school drama, and I'm not talking about the drama department putting on a play considering that there is no drama department at my school. Also you think there's allot of drama on the most popular T.V. show going on right now but this dwarf's it like an elf (Orlando Bloom) to Bilbo bagins (Elijah Woods) from "Lord of the Rings" Well we are doing the "hands on" portion of our CNA (certified nursing assistant) class and there is a girl in my class who lives in Sp. Fork and doesn't drive so she takes the UTA bus to get to school. well with us going to different locations she "doesn't" have a ride to get to the location sites and she freak's out for several days and call's not only me but almost every girl in class (and there are 30 plus people in o...

I was bord so I thought that I would put this up because I'm a big fan. If you don't know who this is you really need to update your band/music info. It's Nickelback

need I say more?

I was so exited that I couldn't help but take a picture of me and my pool.... outside!!! I know this sounds shallow, vain, materialistic, whatever you want to say but I love my pool.

DO I LOOK SEXY OR WHAT!!! HAHAHA (ya right) as you can tell I just installed an indoor pool it took all but 30 min. to install am I good or what! that's what I call talent.

well I have to say that the past couple of weeks have been very interesting and as of right now I'm happy with my life. I love going to school and I'm loving my job the more I go. Another thing is that I just got my own private pool in my backyard!!! POOL PARTY AT MY HOUSE!!! the only thing is that we have to take turns considering that it's a kiddy pool hahaha. I do have a real pool behind the club house and it's for anybody who lives at Chambray and any "guest" my only rule for my pool is no peeing in the pool, everybody will know if you did anyways. Other that getting my own "pool" nothing else is going on in my life well other than Alan graduating from High School. NO MORE H.S. GRADUATIONS FOR A VERY LONG TIME!!! I'm so glad. one thing that sucks of being the oldest of 6 kids is that you have to go to 6 H.S. graduations yours, and 5 others "your siblings" so Alan being the youngest I'm glad that there are no more. now there is...

so I started my new job working with mentally disabled people and I think I'll really like it. the funny thing is that before I started working I got a 50cent raise for a poor person that's great! the reason why is because I just happened to be certified in first aid, CPR, food handelers permitt, and just had my TB test and had/have proof that I had them all. so I got the raise. of course this job will be frustrating at first but I think I'll get the hang of it because I have done this before about two & 1/2 yrs ago. right now I'm only part time but I think that when I get the hang of it I'll go full time the nice thing with this job full time is 36 hrs a week and I did the math and I can still go to school full time as well and still get good grades because there is some down time where Ican do homework.

I have to say with the word assume just take u out and you have... and that's how I feel, like an ass kind of like open mouth and insert foot. a nice big SLAP in the face a nice hug throbbing red welt mark on my face and I know it's going to stay for a long time. well also I just found out that I got a job on the weekends and I don't think that I'll be around for a while so nobody has to worry about me being overbearing and wanting to take there kids away from them so I can STAY AWAY from them. I promise THAT FOR SURE

So I have to say that reading other people's blogs is interesting. well plus a great way to get an update on their lives. well considering that I only have Kaylyn's and Briahna's blogs I really don't have anybody else's. I have to say that I'm jealous that Mindy got married and I'm struggling to find a boyfriend at the age of 30! don't worry I WILL STOP touching your kid with my white hands! even thought for some freak of nature reason why he likes me. don't worry I want to move out of this state ASAP when I graduate from school so you don't have to worry about me TOUCHING YOUR KID EVER! well I have other reasons why I want to move out of the state of Utah that's another novel I can write. I should become a writer.

So I have to say that not only having my dad back on the dating scene and having him date (NOT to mention that he has a girlfriend) he's getting more action on the dating game than I am. Obviously I had a relationship and that didn't work out! I have my reasons why I don't date, I could write a novel about why I don't date. I have enough drama of my own in my own life to last a while! just Mothers Day weekend alone was dramatic just ask any of my siblings and they could tell you, it was fun though. well other than drama on the weekends how about this DRAMATIC WEATHER! I thought this weather was suppose to be back in April with funky rain showers in the valley's and snow in the mountains. not in May! I just hope we have a good summer so I could go boating with the fam. oh and you can't forget fires in the mountains durring the summer. drama, drama, drama!

well an update of my life I'll to tell you what I told my school rep. my life is boring but predictable. Mon- Thurs I go to school during the day from 8:30am to 2pm and Mon-Fri I go to work from 6-10pm and in my spare time I run errands, do homework, take a nap or just watch TV. sometimes I do all in an afternoon between school & work then I'm dead tired by the time I get home from work. but I know I did something for that day. now I just need to have a boyfriend to spice up my life literaly.

I herd that the food was fatty but what you think of McDonald's food now? it looks like it might have a bark to go along with that bite. also they might be down sizeing, that you won't be getting a "St. Bernard" of a meal anymore hahaha

notice anything odd with this picture? ya a friend of mine from school e-mailed it to me and I thought it was cute and I wanted to share

ya so I was sitting on the couch and I looked over and I saw mini like this and I thought it was funny I just had to take a picture!! I haven't gotten any cute pictures of puffy yet (my other cat) but hopfully someday I will.

so last night I noticed that my two little precious didn't have water so I got them water and this is the result of me getting them water, I thought it was funny!!!

the picture says it all need I say more? mini thinks he's all that and a bag of chips AND MORE but he's the biggest chicken in the world.

so with that title can you tell I'm ready for spring? talk about birds I have a little bird feeder outside the front of my house and I noticed birds where around, that made me so happy. on the other hand my cats!! it will give them somthing to do when I'm not around, not that I'm againt birds that's why I got the "bird feeder" in the first place, I don't want my cats to catch them just I guess play with them for lack of better words, if the birds do get caught it's there own falt for being lazy. I'm so exited that spring is on the way!!!

So I was looking at the calender the other day and I was wondering what to do on the weekends for the summer scene I work / go to school during the week, I'm exited to do fun things like going to sundance to hike, ride on the lifts, take pottery & photography class's, boating in Utah lake (yummy), bike riding up Provo canyon, going to St. George a of couple times, going to the Orem Owlz baseball games, and maybe having to work one weekend a month, oh and you can't forget just sleeping in and being lazy for the day. all I have to do is decide on what weekend I'm doing what. So that's why I'm exited for the summer to start.

If it's out of focus sorry, but this is what I got on valentines Day the sad thing is that I got the flowers from Dad and a card, the other two from Grandma and Mom but I can't complain I'd have to say that I have parents that love me. not a whole lot of people can say that anymore which is sad.